Today was hectic! I was in training, and I started getting these frantic emails, texts and phone calls! haha. The organization I work for was trying to get me to renew my insurance so that I could continue to work with them. It brought me back to being a case worker though. I couldn't even go to an important day of training without emergencies and perceived crisis dragging me away from knowledge!
Afterwards though, as it all resolved itself like it usually does, I thought to myself, "Why did I panic? Why didn't I go to God with it first? Wasn't he the one blessed me with this work? Wouldn't he then take care of me in a way that allowed me to continue with this work?." I've been really working on a few things, instead of the monster list I usually find myself working on.
Self-Discipline- This really is the bane of my existence and is at the heart of why I struggle with life! A lot has lead me to struggle very deeply in this area. With a story like mine, it was easy to fall into a victim roll growing up. Which lead to using it in high school and college which were key years for getting good independent skills. Since I struggled with assignments and deadlines, there was a certain leniency that let me drift by without many pitfalls. I was well liked as a student, and excelled in the classroom.
Now, I desperately want to turn things around! It will take one step at a time. Soooooo my first step is waking up at the same time every morning, and earlier on days that I have training. Egads! I'm already nervous about it all. I already feel anxious about my ability to complete this. I'm already afraid of failure. I'm always hopeful, but I also want to succeed so that I can move onto the next task.