Its been a long haul, and I've felt like an empty cup. It has seemed difficult and unattainable. Like climbing a mountain, I grasped at false starts and clung to a promised hope.
God is helping me be happy with where I am, and he's giving me a period of stability. In this contentment and stability, I feel ready to wrestle with my faith. I'm ready to submit to him piece by piece. I'm still trying to discern if this is for fact or not, but I feel open. I feel ready. I as if something has finally clicked and my mind knows how to be open to God's teaching and voice.
Heavenly Father, help my heart be open to change. Change my heart so I grow into a stronger daughter.